Location: London, United Kingdom Birthday:9/27/1985 Gender:Female
Interests:Jules (the most important girl in my life) :o) ,Alcohol, Rugby, Motorbikes, Disney, Films, Buffy, Angel, Tru Calling, Eliza Dushku, Stitch, Coca-Cola, Chocolate, Me to You bears, Life, Bobble, Travelling to as many US states as possible, Snow, Cuddling with my girl, TGI Friday's 'Oreo Cookie milkshakes' Expertise:Romantic gestures, acting like a goof-ball, playing Rugby, drinking like a fish, giving massages, receiving hugs, being utterly confused over the simpliest of things... Occupation:Student
God I haven't posted here for ages...erm...I think I'm just gonna copy the e-mail i sent:
Hey guys,
I'm sorry I didn't really text or call either of you during Christmas...erm, just before Christmas Satch passed away....so it's been pretty hard lately and I just couldn't really face seeing anyone, I only stayed home for a couple of days over Christmas anyway. I was at Jules' and my dad rang me to let me know that Satch had died in Ross' arms when him and mom were shopping, erm it was the 17th and yeah I drove home and everyone was pretty much in pieces, mom and dad couldn't stop crying and Ross didn't really accept that he'd died...so erm we had to leave him outside because it was too warm in the house and we wanted to get a proper casket and everything for him.
I had to stay up all night with him cus I was scared that an animal was gonna get under the cover I made for him, and I just didn't want to leave him. So yeah in the morning we drove to Bicester and picked up this really nice coffin for him, even had a lace pillow in for him (you know what Satch was like, always my spoiled puppy). Erm I had to dig a hole in the garden for him, you'd be impressed how much I managed to dig considering I've done all the ligaments in my good knee! So Kerri helped aswell and by the time we were finished it was about 6ft. Erm we had like a proper burial, everyone put little treats in with him and his blanket and then I had to seal the coffin and lower him in and cover it...
So I'm not doing so great right now, I know people probably think it's silly and he's just a pet but he was my puppy. Mom and Dad have been distraught, dad didn't even cry this much when his mom died and I just had to keep comforting everyone cus no-one knew what to do and so I organised it all. I even made a makeshift cross for him and I bought a latern and every night mom and dad put a little candle in it for him.
I feel bad cus I know I promised I'd see you guys over Christmas and I was really looking forward to it but Christmas was just difficult this year and like I said, I couldn't cope seeing people...it's taken me this long to be able to sit down and e-mail you guys and I'm absolutely bawling my eyes out. So yeah...I mean he had a really good life so I'm really happy about that and it was quick, he didn't suffer...the vet thinks his heart just gave out in the end and that he ready to go.
I promise I will see you guys at some point, I'm gonna even try make it down to **** and ******* - Jules keeps on at me to take time off work and go. I just want you to know that even when we don't see each other, I think about you guys and wonder how you're doing and hope everything's okay and I know that when we see each other, everything's how it used to be and I couldn't ask for better friends.
I hope everything is okay and I'm sorry about the e-mail, that it couldn't be happier news.
I keep meaning to update this but trying to find the time and energy....well doesn't happen very often! As it is it's stupid 'am' in the morning and I didn't sleep very well and I'm off to work soon!
Life is good though. Financially I'm a little screwed but otherwise...been staying with Jules in Cov this week cus it was reading week for Crim....Can't wait till I actually graduate and there's no more commuting, we can just spend all week together. Am heading back down after work tonight and then heading back Monday morning for my American Studies lecture.
Uni is fine, lots of work, but it's okay. Things have been a little stressful of late, a guy in a block opposite mine killed himself a few weeks ago and then there's the copious amounts of work I have due (2 essays this wednesday and another 3,000 one due on the 11th Dec). I've seen my dissertation supervisor now though and I just need to hand in my proposal this week and then get a start on it. The module doesn't actually start till next semester but it won't hurt to get my ass into gear and get the research done and some plans of where it's heading and whatnot.
We played a rugby game on Wednesday vs UCLAN. Kicked their ass' 51-5 and yours truely scored a try It was a good game though and Jules came to watch again, always nice having her there to try and impress! The politics of friends at Uni is something altogether different though and I won't even pretend to like or understand that, but hey just take it as it comes.
My puppy isn't fairing too great at the moment, he's on more pills but he looks kinda cute cus he's having to wear blue doggy socks because he's got cysts on his paws which keep bleeding. He'll be okay though, he's my little fighter.
That's about it really....Gonna get ready for work now and then head down to my girl for some r'n'r
Back at Uni for my final year and still very much in love with my gorgeous girlfriend. It's weird not being with her everyday after living together all summer but won't be long till I graduate and we move in together
My life has been a barrel of non stop something or other..I forget
where that phrase was going. Anyways, yes my life has been non
stop. I guess I'll do a quick re-cap for those interested and also for
myself cus I tend to forget unless it's written down (I'm reading this
out of my daily planner thingy):
March
Continued physio following Rugby accident
Celebrated my year anniversary with Jules
Attended the AU Presentation ball where we got a trophy
Got a new phone contract with T-Mobile so Jules and me are on the
same network and thus our phone bills are not ridiculously high anymore
April
Worked my first Grand National (what a bunch of lunatics!) and went to the Pub with people from work - Nuts but very nice people
Jules and me went up to Liverpool again to see Corinne Bailey Rae in concert - She's a great singer but what a diva!
Went to my Uncle and Auntie's for a family lunch, they're really lovely people and if I remember right it was an awesome day
Stayed overnight in Croydon for the Rugby Cup Final vs
Exeter. We absolutely got hammered by some stupid score and at
one point I was ready to run on the pitch, but I hadn't long been off
crutches and still couldn't bend my knee fully. We got to go to
Twickenham though and that was really ace.
May
Went with Jules to the Hard Rock cafe B'ham
Rugby 7's
Went to Silverstone with Gary, Jules' best mate, and had a cool time watching all the cars race round.
Took Jules to Manchester to the Trafford center and to the Hard Rock
Cafe. We're slowly making our way around all the UK ones so she can
collect the pin badges. Was a fantastic day, lots of fun, and best of
all I got to spend some quality time with my girl
Began an on-going battle with O2 over their incompetence and failure to provide proper customer service - still unresolved!
Lost Lorraine to cancer. The service was really
heart-breaking, my nephews carried the coffin and Adrian looked
completely lost and like a little boy. From what I can gather,
the kids are coping alot better than he is and he's not coming to terms
with it - I guess he never really will, he said he lost his wife, his
best friend and soulmate all at the same time
Went and saw Beverley Knight in concert at the Shepard's Bush
Empire with Jules, Helen, Gary and my sister. She was absolutely
amazing and if anyone gets the chance, I'd definately go see her.
June
Celebrate my girl's birthday
Say goodbye to my Uni mates for the summer and finish Uni for my 2nd year
Start watching the World Cup games
Get discharged from Physio properly - I still haven't got full
movement but it's almost there. Still experience pains and can't
put my knee in certain positions (can't kneel or squat without
excruitiating pain) but it's just a case of time and building up muscle
as well as letting it heal (cus 5 months isn't enough time!)
Argue with stupid doctor over my nose, he insists it's my
hayfever. See other doctor and get it confirmed that I have a
nose infection, not just hayfever, and receive anti-biotics
July
Jules' friends from Arizona State Uni arrive over and take them for dinner and to Stratford Upon Avon.
See Neurologist in London (Russell Square felt eerie fyi) and go
through an hour and 1/2 of boring tests - Results have to come from
Consultant, Consultant appointment isn't until October
I've spent majority of time with my girl. We've had our ups and
downs but we're getting through things bit by bit and I honestly don't
think I could ever feel as strongly for anyone other than her.
She is my best friend and my soul mate and I couldn't picture my life
without her. We've been together 1 year and almost 4 months now
and it seems like forever. I know that's a short time for most
people but I feel a better person for being with her, even if we can
drive each other crazy at times
And on that note tomorrow I will be moving out of my Uni house and
transfering jobs to Coventry to live with Jules over summer. We
have a very passionate and fiery relationship, so we're bound to have
our rows but it's always great to kiss and make-up afterwards
Seriously though, I can't think of anything more perfect
than getting to wake up next to her every morning for the next few
months
My puppy hasn't been well lately. He's on heavy amounts of
tablets but he's getting through it day by day and every day we spend
with him is special. I honestly love him to pieces and I can't
bear to think about what life would be like without him. He's one
of the family now and I can only pray that he stays okay for a long
time to come and that he's happy. I'm safe in the knowledge he's
loved, both myself and my parents have stayed up all night with him in
the last few weeks when he's had a bad night and he's the most
beautiful dog... Anyways, he *will* be okay.
At the end of August I'm flying out with my family to the States.
My brother is getting married to Kathy, the Conservative Republican
from Kentucky. I respect my brothers choice and am therefore not
going to comment aside from the fact that if she makes him happy, then
thats all that counts
After the wedding we're flying up to Boston and I'll probably stay with
my family for a bit but I'm also visiting my friends from Maine.
Sam hasn't contacted me so I doubt we'll see each other which all in
honesty, I'm gutted about. I found out from other friends that
she's dating Tamer now and that's become her life, so I hope she's
happy. I will be visiting Christine and her new baby Casey in New
Hampshire, Leash in Maine, Ashley and Natalia in New York and hopefully
when I eventually get round to e-mailing him, I'm gonna find out if my
friend Phil is still in the Boston area and I might get to see him for
a coffee I'm so haphazard at keeping in touch sometimes, I
feel pretty bad about it. I want to see Gigi and her boyfriend's
family too, the guys I spent Thanksgiving with, but I haven't talked to
them in forever so we'll see.
Anyways thats about it I guess. I've gotta finish packing and
I've got work all day before heading down to Jules' so I'll leave it at
this.
Hope everyone is doing okay and Summer is treating them well,
Roch
xx
I do have lots to catch up on but every time I sit down to write
something comes up or happens and it just takes everything out of me.
My sister in law died this morning
All I can say is at least she isn't suffering anymore and hopefully she
found some peace. It must of been Christmas or January she
finally got the diagnosis of cancer after a year of them telling her it
was a gall stone problem. They gave her 3-9 months and I guess at
the very least there is some consolation in the fact she got extra time
with her family.
I'm heading back to home for the funeral in a couple of weeks and in
the meantime trying to get essays and exams over and done with.
My head just feels like a big ball of stress though and if I didn't
feel like crying before, I've done my fair share today.
My thoughts are with Adrian and the kids tonight, I hope they're okay
It was a good game though and Jules came to watch again, always nice having her there to try and impress! The politics of friends at Uni is something altogether different though and I won't even pretend to like or understand that, but hey just take it as it comes.
but he looks kinda cute cus he's having to wear blue doggy socks because he's got cysts on his paws which keep bleeding. He'll be okay though, he's my little fighter.
Anyways, he *will* be okay.